Waldo Beach - "The Encounter of Worship" (January 15, 1961)
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(wind whooshing) | 0:04 | |
Priest | At this nervous time of the university year, | 0:22 |
when everybody is walking on the edges of their existence, | 0:27 | |
and both the academically secure | 0:33 | |
and the academic cliffhangers share a dread | 0:36 | |
at the prospect of exams in the next two weeks. | 0:40 | |
A terrestrial rehearsal of the last judgment. | 0:47 | |
It may speak to our present condition | 0:53 | |
to consider this character | 0:58 | |
of this strange activity of worship | 1:00 | |
in which we are here engaged. | 1:03 | |
What are we gathered in this chapel to do? | 1:08 | |
No need to explain in a fancy way | 1:15 | |
why we line up outside the cafeteria doors for meals, | 1:20 | |
or go to the gym for exercise, | 1:25 | |
or go to the library to study, | 1:28 | |
but it's a more elusive matter to explain to ourselves | 1:33 | |
what is involved in the Sunday morning track to this place | 1:39 | |
to worship, | 1:45 | |
to pray, | 1:48 | |
we say, | 1:49 | |
but what's that? | 1:52 | |
In this transaction of worship, | 1:56 | |
are contained a host of theological problems, | 1:58 | |
and many of the problems of human existence, | 2:03 | |
including the problem of how to survive the next two weeks. | 2:07 | |
All are wrapped up in a definition of what worship is. | 2:13 | |
Worship is some encounter, | 2:22 | |
a meeting of subject and object | 2:25 | |
where the self is engaged in a dialogue with another. | 2:31 | |
Who or what the other is, | 2:39 | |
how the encounter is, | 2:43 | |
begun, | 2:45 | |
continued, | 2:46 | |
how it ends, | 2:48 | |
these are matters of great moments. | 2:50 | |
Worship begins with some subjective need. | 2:56 | |
There are plural motives, I suppose, that brings us here. | 3:05 | |
A Southern or American habit of church going, | 3:10 | |
a custom like the Sunday newspaper | 3:14 | |
that we observe almost by inertia, | 3:18 | |
although this morning | 3:24 | |
it would take a little more than inertia to get us here, | 3:25 | |
a chance to wear some new clothes and to be seen therein, | 3:31 | |
a respect for family expectations. | 3:39 | |
Mixed with these upper reasons, are deeper compulsions, | 3:44 | |
a vague panic at too much to do, | 3:50 | |
a sense of lostness in the face of dark circumstances, | 3:56 | |
when you are as Robert Frost puts it, | 4:02 | |
weary of considerations, | 4:06 | |
and life is too much like a pathless wood | 4:09 | |
where your face burns and tickles | 4:13 | |
with the cobwebs broken across it, | 4:15 | |
and one eye is weeping from a twig | 4:19 | |
having lashed across it open, | 4:22 | |
or perhaps it's some moral quandary, | 4:28 | |
a hard choice to be made | 4:31 | |
among the graves of right and wrong, | 4:34 | |
or perhaps it's a sense of drift and indecision. | 4:40 | |
When we cry out with Kierkegaard, | 4:48 | |
my life is all in the subjunctive mood, | 4:51 | |
would to God I were in the imperative. | 4:58 | |
Or it may simply be | 5:04 | |
to seek help out of a tight place of physical or mental pain | 5:05 | |
and assist from any source | 5:12 | |
for release from numbing agony or uncertainty. | 5:16 | |
Maybe to find survival rations | 5:22 | |
to use on Tuesday morning's ordeal. | 5:26 | |
These are all subjective needs. | 5:32 | |
And the usual secular explanation of worship is | 5:36 | |
that when men are hard up, | 5:41 | |
when the usual resources for supplying food | 5:43 | |
or serenity fail, | 5:47 | |
they have a curious primitive way | 5:50 | |
of turning for help to some divine power to help them out. | 5:53 | |
They have a rain dance around some totem, | 6:00 | |
or in the 20th, century they go to church. | 6:04 | |
When their earthly fathers fail, | 6:10 | |
they cry their needs to a father image, | 6:12 | |
a projection. | 6:17 | |
What is prayer? | 6:21 | |
Our Father who art in heaven, | 6:24 | |
who must be in heaven | 6:29 | |
since all earthly fathers fail on the hard empirical earth. | 6:33 | |
But according to this way, | 6:41 | |
if the harsh truth be told, this father is only man | 6:44 | |
who eat large on the sky. | 6:50 | |
We have no divine kinsmen, we have only each other. | 6:54 | |
If we take as final, | 7:02 | |
this typical anthropologist's or psychologist's | 7:04 | |
account of worship, | 7:09 | |
it is no dialogue, | 7:12 | |
no encounter with anything more substantial than a shadow. | 7:15 | |
It is only monologue. | 7:20 | |
We stew in our own private juice of lament and need, | 7:23 | |
or to use a crude figure of speech, | 7:32 | |
worship as prayer before battle | 7:36 | |
is an act like spitting on your hands | 7:41 | |
before you get to work. | 7:44 | |
It's nothing but a superstitious gesture of self-help. | 7:47 | |
Isn't it odd that so many intelligent people, | 7:53 | |
university people with PhDs and things, | 7:59 | |
who ought to know better, | 8:05 | |
seem to persist in this primitive superstition? | 8:08 | |
Well, | 8:18 | |
that's one account of what worship is. | 8:18 | |
No encounter at all, just a group soliloquy. | 8:21 | |
The biblical faith is more subtle and wise. | 8:28 | |
It affirms that prayer and worship | 8:35 | |
start with subjective need. | 8:37 | |
Yes. | 8:40 | |
But it also affirms that | 8:43 | |
there are kinds and kinds of prayer and worship | 8:44 | |
from low and primitive to high and true. | 8:48 | |
From the gimme prayer to the prayer of Christ, | 8:54 | |
"not my will but Thine be done." | 9:00 | |
It says that authentic worship is objective encounter, | 9:06 | |
dialogue between the self's need and a real other. | 9:12 | |
In the old Testament, | 9:19 | |
the issue is sharply joined | 9:20 | |
between the priests and the prophets | 9:23 | |
on what the character of this meeting is like. | 9:25 | |
At least in its commonplace form, | 9:30 | |
priestly religion is not much different theologically, | 9:32 | |
from a rain dance. | 9:39 | |
The priests come to Jehovah with some subjective need, | 9:42 | |
and seek to manipulate the other to serve their wish. | 9:46 | |
God is a whimsical arbitrary deity | 9:53 | |
who can be wheedled and cajoled, | 9:58 | |
who will help them, | 10:01 | |
who will be on their side in battle, | 10:03 | |
a tribal deity, | 10:06 | |
a pushover. | 10:10 | |
but the prophets read the encounter differently. | 10:13 | |
For them, | 10:19 | |
worship is meeting with another | 10:20 | |
who is not whimsical and wheedleable, | 10:22 | |
but an absolute, | 10:28 | |
a universal father. | 10:31 | |
The Lord of the universe who cannot be manipulated. | 10:34 | |
In prophetic religion prayer, He is indeed a projection, | 10:41 | |
but not a mere projection, | 10:48 | |
for the projection hates something other, | 10:52 | |
something counter, | 10:57 | |
something that may change the character of the projection, | 10:59 | |
that may speak a sharp no to man's desire | 11:06 | |
for a supporting, unpleasant guest. | 11:12 | |
This prophetic understanding of worship | 11:18 | |
finds its classic expression in our lesson of the morning | 11:22 | |
from Isaiah. | 11:27 | |
It is encounter of the prophet with the deity of God, | 11:29 | |
high and lifted up, | 11:35 | |
and his train fill the temple. | 11:38 | |
Holy | 11:42 | |
holy | 11:43 | |
holy | 11:45 | |
is the Lord of hosts, | 11:46 | |
the whole earth is full of His glory. | 11:49 | |
The confrontation with the divine, | 11:53 | |
with the Holy one of Israel, | 11:57 | |
whether it be in the year that king Josiah died | 11:59 | |
or on a Sunday morning when I happened to go to chapel, | 12:04 | |
or perhaps I want to study, | 12:09 | |
this is an encounter | 12:12 | |
which jolts me out of my small thumbsucking subjective lips. | 12:14 | |
We really should check the small problem at the door | 12:23 | |
when we come in to the great presence. | 12:27 | |
For what we here meet is more important than my worry | 12:32 | |
about how to read a 400-page novel by Thursday | 12:38 | |
without really reading it. | 12:44 | |
What we are here to do | 12:48 | |
is to celebrate the presence and power | 12:51 | |
of the one who is the ground of existence, | 12:53 | |
the source and goal of all our lives. | 12:57 | |
The encounter of prophetic worship | 13:00 | |
is not projection or manipulation, | 13:03 | |
but adoration. | 13:08 | |
It is the total concentration of mind and heart | 13:12 | |
on the divine for its own sake. | 13:17 | |
We love the things we love for what they are. | 13:22 | |
And it's to say, worship honors the intrinsically worthy, | 13:29 | |
or as Bernard of Clairvaux puts it, | 13:36 | |
that a Christian gives thanks to God | 13:39 | |
not because He is good to him, | 13:42 | |
but because He is simply good. | 13:45 | |
With whatever subjective need it brings, | 13:51 | |
worship becomes real | 13:56 | |
as it is objective encounter with God. | 13:57 | |
It is looking at God for God's own sake, | 14:04 | |
not our own. | 14:08 | |
And in such encounter, I can only say, | 14:10 | |
holy | 14:13 | |
holy | 14:14 | |
holy | 14:16 | |
is the Lord of hosts. | 14:17 | |
Worship is not only adoration, | 14:22 | |
it is also some contrition under judgment, | 14:26 | |
for the God I meet is awesome, | 14:32 | |
no easy charm, | 14:36 | |
no man upstairs, | 14:39 | |
no soft touch, | 14:42 | |
but another who sets me upside down. | 14:46 | |
If I have a small notion of worship | 14:52 | |
as a sanctified coffee break or a rest-stop, | 14:55 | |
and come expecting this, | 15:01 | |
what I meet is the cross, | 15:04 | |
which is not a symbol for comfort or coffee. | 15:07 | |
And if all worship, this second movement of the encounter | 15:13 | |
is a commentary on Isaiah's description, | 15:18 | |
"Woe is me for I'm lost, for I'm a man of unclean lips, | 15:23 | |
and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips, | 15:28 | |
for mine eyes have seen the king, | 15:33 | |
the Lord of hosts." | 15:37 | |
When we are suddenly in the glare of the divine inspection, | 15:40 | |
we know ourselves ripped shaken, tossed, | 15:46 | |
stripped of pretense, | 15:52 | |
revealed to ourselves in our pettiness. | 15:55 | |
In the presence of God, | 16:01 | |
I'm made aware that I have brought the mistaken questions, | 16:04 | |
the wrong needs in prayer, | 16:09 | |
for when mine eyes have seen the king, | 16:14 | |
I will hear a voice which says, | 16:17 | |
to translate Isaiah freely, | 16:20 | |
"why so hot, little man?" | 16:23 | |
In worship, | 16:30 | |
whether I'm as student or teacher here, | 16:31 | |
I'm confronted in this place by God of truth, | 16:35 | |
and I'm recalled to what a university education is about, | 16:41 | |
to what I'm about within it, | 16:45 | |
pursuit of truth, not grades. | 16:49 | |
The encounter then becomes a judgment | 16:53 | |
on my small worries and devices | 16:56 | |
in giving and getting grades. | 17:00 | |
The judgment on my little manipulations, | 17:05 | |
and writing term papers, for example, | 17:09 | |
whereby I make the worst appear the better reason | 17:11 | |
by typing it up with wide margins | 17:16 | |
and adding all footnotes or effect. | 17:20 | |
Or as a citizen on campus, | 17:27 | |
I'm confronted here by a God of love, | 17:30 | |
a moral God, | 17:32 | |
the Lord of the heart as of the mind, | 17:36 | |
who in the cross brings all my moral shoddiness, | 17:40 | |
my moral pretense, | 17:46 | |
my self-righteousness, | 17:49 | |
and my deviousness to bay, | 17:52 | |
and pours contempt on all my pride. | 17:56 | |
In other words, | 18:02 | |
the encounter changes the character of the need, | 18:03 | |
the question, the worry which I bring. | 18:06 | |
It sets to write the fundamental dislocation of values, | 18:10 | |
which exist as St. Augustine says, | 18:15 | |
"when men worship what they should only use, | 18:20 | |
and use what they should only worship." | 18:24 | |
Prayer and worship remake the heart's desire. | 18:30 | |
So we may come into the chapel or to an alter anywhere | 18:37 | |
seeking the divine to secure our temporal end. | 18:44 | |
The encounter transforms the relation. | 18:51 | |
Now we meet the divine seeking the human | 18:55 | |
to secure eternal end. | 18:59 | |
First movement of worship is | 19:04 | |
the adoration of God for his deity. | 19:06 | |
The middle of movements is contrition under judgment, | 19:12 | |
the transformation of need. | 19:17 | |
The closing movement of the encounter of worship | 19:22 | |
is it's subjective result, | 19:26 | |
forgiveness, and renewal. | 19:30 | |
For the God met in Christian worship is a God of grace | 19:35 | |
as He is a God of glory, and the God of thunder. | 19:40 | |
"Behold your guilt is taken away and your sin forgiven. | 19:46 | |
And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, | 19:54 | |
'whom shall I send, and who will go for us?' | 19:56 | |
Then I said, 'here I am, send me.' | 20:03 | |
The Lord encountered as judge brings me low, | 20:10 | |
but the Lord encountered as redeemer picks me up, | 20:15 | |
sets me up on my feet, answers my prayer, | 20:21 | |
though in different terms than in the way I first put them. | 20:25 | |
The last movement of worship then | 20:31 | |
is to restore the worshiper to his true self, | 20:34 | |
to send him forth on a higher level of spirit | 20:39 | |
than when he came in. | 20:43 | |
This is the curious last paradox of prayer | 20:45 | |
as understood in the Christian faith. | 20:50 | |
Just as happiness is the aroma | 20:56 | |
not the intention of virtue, | 21:01 | |
so serenity, | 21:06 | |
perspective, | 21:10 | |
renewed morale, | 21:12 | |
these are the fruits, not the intention of real worship. | 21:14 | |
If I really seek the Living God, not a cosmic bellhop, | 21:23 | |
then I do not manipulate Him, but adore Him. | 21:30 | |
But then he gives me by surprise, | 21:37 | |
serenity, peace, sanity. | 21:43 | |
To the mind, is given fresh perspective. | 21:49 | |
I come with blurred vision, | 21:54 | |
looking at everything, | 21:57 | |
a squint preoccupied with the small. | 21:59 | |
By the light of the vision of God, I see light again. | 22:04 | |
I see things in their right to relations, | 22:09 | |
small for small, and large for large. | 22:12 | |
I see the point of it all. | 22:18 | |
To the heart, is given fresh motivation. | 22:22 | |
By contemplating the divine urgency and the divine patience, | 22:30 | |
I am given a morale both of urgency and patience, | 22:39 | |
for the human encounter is with the tough and the humdrum, | 22:46 | |
the nasty, which daily I meet. | 22:51 | |
I can then pick up my small problem, | 22:57 | |
tomorrow's task that I checked at the door, | 23:01 | |
and find that the problem has not been solved | 23:07 | |
by incantation to a great magic man. | 23:12 | |
But now I can live with it and see my way through it. | 23:18 | |
I can surmount it by the resources of faith and calm, | 23:23 | |
for mine eyes have seen the change." | 23:32 | |
Amen. | 23:39 | |
Let us pray. | 23:41 | |
Oh, thou searcher of hearts, | 23:52 | |
whon no man can deceive, and who deceives none, | 23:57 | |
purify by Thy grace | 24:03 | |
the motives that have brought us to thee. | 24:05 | |
Lift up our hearts from self seeking to true worship, | 24:10 | |
from preoccupation with ourselves to praise of thee, | 24:17 | |
that we may go forth from the height of this place of prayer | 24:24 | |
to live as becomes the children of the most high. | 24:31 | |
Now may the Lord bless you and keep you, | 24:38 | |
the Lord make His face to shine upon you | 24:43 | |
and be gracious unto you. | 24:45 | |
The Lord lift up his countenance upon you | 24:49 | |
and give you peace, both now and evermore. | 24:53 |
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